*cries*

i'll try really hard to be fair, okay? but.. i am always fair tho. :3
yeah.. it's a Vampire knight blog post. read?

ahm, lemme see. the first time i read about vampire knight, Kaname was built as someone whom Yuki admire. I remember the Valentine's day/Birthday(ican'trecall) chapter when Kaname received a lot of chocolates and gifts. He ordered his classmate to get the rest but he got that one particular gift that matters to him. A gift from Yuki. So I totally realized from that point, 'hey, they're really cute together' and i shipped them as if i knew they'll be together along the way.

Turns out, a fangirl needs a lot of thinking. Until now i've been reading the manga, and stressing my life out of the three main characters. And.. the funny thing is.. i changed perspectives.. including the one i rooted for from the start. For me, my basis of choosing the right guy to a girl protagonist(hm.. let's just say,-- to a really deserving girl) is on how he was turned out to be as solid as from the beginning. I personally don't like characters who does think of things that will make a bigger complication between who he loves. I don't want him to be selfish just so he's clear enough not to be hurting the girl, so he'll do a stupid thing like hurting and killing other people. And don't make that crappy reason of 'because i want you to be safe', well.. hell, the girl is safe but half of your race has suffered and dead!!! (i got carried away, isn't it?--lol) I don't want to feel a fuckin' feeling like i've been reading a shoujo manga all this time and read a fuckin' misunderstanding, i-didn't-anticipate-he'll-be-inlove-with-you bullshit!

*calms*

bullets:

• the chapter started with Yuki erasing Zero's memories-- Kaito was right, that was a vampire sense of selfishness. To 'save him'. * but of course, he'll remember things eventually*. And of course, think of this, if Yuki is out of Zero's mind, the cheating doesn't really happened. She said clearly that they can't be together from the last few chapters when they were travelling. Tho, again, they kissed during the ball, right? then, she saw Kaname afterwards. *oh girl..*
•  the truth came out when Kaname just wanted to make Yuki safe after calling her a traitor(which isn't true?) and a hindrance(which isn't true?) at the few chapters before.
• honestly, even if Yuki and Kaname loves each other which has been portrayed in the chapter, it left a bitter aftertaste in me. The flirting and the reunion and the words aren't sweet to me. urgh. (i am sorry, YuMe fans). I felt the same feeling when they ran together back from the academy. It should be really sweet for me, i was a Kaname fan back there. I wanted them to be together.
• They had sex. Well, Yuki had some action there. *lol* But she's crying. Okay, Is she crying because finally she's with Kaname that intimate, or she has plans?
•  -- It's like.. 'oh, you cared, i thought you left me and not being humane again but i'm not letting you go because then you'll lie and run way and you were more lonely than the rest of us' 'oh, i am not going anywhere now'. 'Ok, let's have some smokin' sex because we reconcile and we love each other' -bs! The end. haha. (i am just kidding guys..)
• many people believe that someone will die, Kaname, or both Kaname and Yuki. The author needs to fuckin' straighten up her shit about ending this manga because hell will break loose. With the dying predictions, come on guys, don't be mean. Ok.. let Yuki be, at least. (joke!)

The characters, for me, are built unfairly. I mean, if kaname and Yuki, for instance is for each other in the end, at least Zero must have to have a great fight for her along the story. I acknowledge but then that Kaname and Yuki had some shares of heartaches too. I think it's not really right/nice to express feelings that can make the two boys hope for love. Tho Yuki and Zero weren't once a true couple(aren't they?), and Yuki always choose Kaname(oh, don't argue with me with this) even if the reason is mainly bec. they are related, which is I am sure it is not the reason.. Yuki must have had this strong decision to whom she'll give her heart to at the first place. I think they both thinking about being with and saving each other, and Zero left unsatisfied and hurt at the side lines and totally frustrated. i just don't like a girl who doesn't have strong sense of confidence and unwavering feeling  enough to tell and express her love to whoever she chooses. being naive is a turn off.
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let's think positive, Yume supporters are on fire! :)
Zeki supporters, let's not lose hope!
Yuki supporters.. hm, i heard.. "you, go girl!" screams there..
me: honestly,????????
The fuck!! Zero my poor Zero. ican't even. let me love you. lemmee.. I want you to be happy. Forget Yuki, you'll be better off alone or with another deserving girl who is smart enough to know her own emotions and know who she really love.
me:....
me: let's end this shit. it's so stressful!

notes:
*sorry for the bad words. *puppy dog eyes*
*last arc, last arc..
*acceptance
*nononono
*haha
*please, VK, please end already.
*you know what i thought about the ending? Even if she'll' end up to one or to no one, i won't be satisfied by it, if i will be, i think it's because it had ended already and might find myself smiling. It feels like the journey is very stressful as a reader.  knowing that along the way that my perceptions about the whole manga about containing scenes that were twisted and unfair, characters feels like being built with disappointmental flaws, unfairness among side characters, decisions left not being straighten and confusing scenes being confusing much more along the next preceding chapters that made some readers left confused and left in a deserted island knowing only on just how far Yuki had been different(some even quit reading the series), i couldn't be more happy if this manga will end tomorrow. Being with my selfish side today, i wanted a closure just so i might ('migh't okay?) reread it from the beginning up to the end. i might find myself understanding how the story evolved. Because i believed something went wrong along the way that felt really weird.

Just by talking about it, still vampire knight fans are still with zeal about the manga. Bravo, Hino Matsuri, Bravo! (sarcasm)--lol

im out!
fymb
*disclaimer: nah... it's all my thoughts, so sorry im not sorry about the typos--typed really fast.. (eheh) peace, guys! happy reading!
*first things first! do homework, finish job, do your chores before internet surfing! :)

the Big 12 of 2012 (for me!)

i know i told you about listing and enumerating my top-ten favorite manga i read this 2012, but i'll extend it to 12 because it's in the year 2012 and ah-- to be honest i had read so much manga this year. imagine it. so.. i'll do my best to narrow it down and choose the best manga I've read. though, these manga were published either started from the year 1993 to onward. it's just that I've read it within this year and i had fun reading it. i also scrolled it in my list so it's alphabetically being narrowed. and this list was like cut until letter H or T. *laughs*
Anyways, these bunch is among the best. :)
this list is in no particular order. it doesn't mean i started mentioning it at number 1, it had been my fave. remember, no reader doesn't have a favorite, he have favorites.
Some of  these manga are on-going and still being published in their respective future dates.
1. Heroine Shikkaku
     - what i like about this manga is that it is hilariously entertaining. imagine a beautiful, confident but clingy and emotional girl having unrequited love to her childhood friend. the funny thing is the guy had a girlfriend recently who let's just say, is plain yet really kind. Hatori on the other hand is at her limits after the revelation and the sudden realization of her feelings that she now believed should be given back. She believes that in her love story, she is a heroine and her childhood friend Rita, is her hero. It comprises chapters of funny scenes of Hatori and her plans to make sure that in the end Rita will fall in love with her.
2. Hachimitsu ni hatsukoi
      - 2 childhood friends, cliche' right? but.. nothing hurts.
3. Moyashi Otoko to Tane Shoujo
       - happy endings? not that fast. this sure will break your heart but will make you smile because sometimes, he's not the one. i made a post about this. here: x
4. Kamisama Kiss
      - there are manga that should be started by watching and finishing the anime first if available. this is one of them. i had this supressed excitement when reading the manga. i stopped reading it just so i have to compare the anime with it. i finished the anime first and i now continue reading the manga updates. to be honest, i'm still half-way in the manga. i am still in chapter 44, i think. i'm enjoying the manga. i have this tendency to be confused when reading manga and watching the anime at the same time. Usually you compare the animation with the 2D, but when it comes to this manga, i appreciate the animation more even if it was cut short in ep 13 and some of the chapters were skipped. sometimes we nedd to wathc them moving. the funny, romantic scenes in the anime is to die for. i have high hopes for OVAs and a second season. :)
5. Ao haru ride
      - this manga won me even before. i automatically inserted it in my list of favorites the first time i read this manga way back though i loved Strobe edge first. i love the mangaka, with her art and style immediately. i loved Kyou every chapter updates. What made me a little disappointed was the chapter that many readers were disappointed too. but i get it, this is a new twist, or progression, or whatever it is. i get it that sometimes characters may or may not do something stupid. i totally get it that characters aren't there to please readers. Though the character progression of Kyou was a little abrupt. In my opinion, Kyou was being built a very opened guy which compared to other characters in other manga who are different to fathom. I've read some comments that a certain chapter if you are updated, made them compare in similarities to other manga. it could have been original. but.. i don't know.. let's see. i wouldn't be surprised if the next chapter will reveal a misunderstanding chapter(which of course you can't blame me to compare to other manga now). 
6. Black bird
      - Kyo has been well loved and consistent in the manga. Though the girl protagonist needs to always being rescued, the manga progress smoothly and have no boring chapters. still one of the best. i got really spoiled for the next new chapters. still one of my fave this year.
7. Hana ni kedamono
   - a typical naive girl, beautiful guy, school-based manga and nice art.
8. Kore wa koi no hanashi
     - if there is one manga i would like to keep it to myself, this is the one. *haha*. because, i don't want it to be stained by the not-so- fans of this type of manga. i read it with no bitterness and i have my opinion over the story. i just don't want people to criticize a manga they doesn't read yet up to the end. they are some too who express their interpretation over the manga and i get that.for me, the mangaka's interpretation shouldn't be always your interpetation too. you have to own what you read. i just learned about that having to read a lot of manga and books these past years. you should own it and be humble. the book is being owned by the reader not the author.
9. Taiyou no ie
    - very cute though the updates are slow, but very, very cute.

10. 5-Ji kara 9-ji made
    - the boy protagonist doesn't have the qualities to be one but the story sure is interesting.

11. Akatsuki no Yona
    - i've read manga similar to this. like, the princess's family or father was dead, she was kidnapped or being rescued by her childhood friend for a quest or something. the story is funny, and it updates fast sometimes and the title is catchy i guess. *tee hee*

12. Bokura wa itsumo
    - very cute

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i just can't pick 12, right?! *smiles* (here are some others):

1. Kuroko no basket-- hilarious, lovable characters. pick your hero and build an empire! *junpei fan here*

2. Skip beat! -- the emotions every time it updates drives me and my followers insane! if you haven't read this, you're missing half of your otaku life!

3.Good ending -- i don't know, i find myself needing to read this when it updates. the mangaka is having a good time twisting and turning the story that i have to wait what he/she will offer next..

4. Horimiya -- one of my fave! Miyamura took my heart away! the fetishly-drawn face of him is obvious. the mangaka loves sketching the guy.

5. Hibi chouchou -- a lot of stares, a lot of cute scenes, the boy is starting to make me irritated but.. hell.. i'll continue reading this.

 i have a lot really but i have to stop now. :)

new year message:

HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS! this has been a wonderful blogging year. i don't just gained more followers(and lost some) but i had a happy experience reading, cropping, answering messages and recommending manga. i look forward for another year of unending joy. i want everybody to choose happiness no matter what. i want everybody to gain wisdom. i want to let you guys know that having a better world starts with spreading good. 

be good. do the right thing. we aren't perfect but i believe that we are mature enough to do what is right. 

stick around! ;)

2012 is out.

2013 is in.

fymb